All is fair in love &.................?

Rumination it may appear,but it wont tire your hands and back.Inane it might sound,but wait untill i finish my dear frndz.Its yet another wednesday evening.But for we civilians it is"The Wednesday".Wednesdays always had something in store for us for the last one month.Well i am not here to give condlence to you people for what had happened to you people in the past week.Nor do i dare to present those when you have "The masters of creed" & "Alchemists in the offing".Scrupulous i was in all my actions.Now the very usage of "was"might get a few interested i believe( if not many).So proud i was for being able to salvage my "morals".Alas, the last monday had taken back that esteem from me.Send in the form of a course named "BDD" i was fully tattered and battered with no scope for fair play in resistance.Yes ,atlast i did it.Again i repeat,inane it might sound for many,but it matters a lot for me.Am i here apologise? Am i here to repent ? well, i dont know.I heard my primary teacher saying "All is fair in love & war".Dont know where it came from.Nor do i bother to.Afterall i got something to cover myself.Yes it was fair enough to do it.It was fair enough to do so at the twelfth hour when the whole block went to sleep.It was fair enough to save my hands and vertebra which took me so long in life.It was fair enough to surrender all my pride and self esteem.Questions may arise with all its vitalities.I do entertain them.For , life has always been like that.But at the end of the day ,my dear "ALCHEMIST",you are right and i am wrong.But fair dice cannot always help you.Though it may provide just a momentary relief,it counts a lot.I believe atleast few of my"unscruplous mates" do agree this with "stretched arms" right in front .Let me end in a good note.The great reservoir of knowledge bhagvad gita says"Dharma is not a rigid code of conduct. Within a general framework of moral values, dharma is always changing, according to the needs and development of society and that of the human ".Well i dared to change dharma for a good cause(though myself being the cause and effect).Do you remember those favourite words of my good old primary teacher?All is fair in love and.......well, i got it "All is fair in love & BDD".And of course dont forget the famous saying"All is well that ends well".

i HeLl CiViL [ may I, plz?]

In all this whole world, where the hell did we land, what the hell are we doing!

Ever wondered and pondered over this?

I can’t help but just be sad, sad for myself, but do I enjoy the liberty to curse, to think bad about all this?

Is this about pursuing civil engineering or the whole of it all… the whole existence, the whole going through the motions… what’s up man?

Are we gonna get ground and smashed into bits and pieces…so that all we are left of ourselves is just a nothing…is it so?

Too much pessimism or too much questioning? What is putting you off so far? Exactly… now imagine at the end of the day all you have is a thousand such thoughts rummaging your mind, destroying your peaceful dreams, driving you crazy and playing havoc with you!

So with this where are am I heading to?

What I had in the last week was more than enough for me.

More than 15 hours of drawing to make me realize what people used to do in the ancient days when the better way around is CAD, what can I say! Never bother if that logic is to be applied to the teacher itself, will he be ready to adorn himself with leaves and twigs and replace his already tattered bike with the bullock cart… I guess not! Weekends ruined, back aching like hell, what I was left with was just observe the others… their ingenious ways of completing the same drawing homework. Never been witness to the Glass sheet-Emergency lamp setup in my life, I was surely excited and curious to this wow sight. The balancing act, the exactly right pressure applied on glass, the positioning of light…the straight thinking guys who believe in the old school of thought of hard work can never match this delicate skill…can they ever…not at all! But the results, the assessment, never care for them…they are as same as the other. The same leaves & twigs-bullock cart teacher is not smart enough to distinguish between milk and water…so sad, ain’t it?

Am I complaining or am I exclaiming in pain? Leave it…not worth answering.

Am I ready to risk my life for just a job that pays just 2.5k a month? Hey…I have to. Don’t I remember what I was advised just last week, my job satisfaction is more important, I need not run after money, it will follow me wherever I go, heaven/hell, tall building/deep tunnel, Sahara/Antartica just everywhere!

How about giving an MTP test…c’mon give it a try. All we need is to read everything, mug it up like hell and justify the fact ‘There is no best way of managing’! Yeah, right ma’am, absolutely. With the kind of lectures you treat us with everyday, we are convinced that all of management is waste, absolute and whole. Now I guess even 2 years of time learning the waste principles at any IIM won’t convince me that managing is worth it…right fellas!

More and more of all that. Uncountable. Don't bother to know them all. Better ignored!